THE FEAR OF HEALING

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The mass hysteria surrounding the paedophile scare has the potential
to inspire the healing of our civilisation, if only we can 'rewire'
ourselves so that we see the world as it really is and make the simple
deductions which become  obvious if we allow ourselves to think.

When I first started writing about the correct analysis of our
condition and the correct healing formula, I was a bit bewildered at
first by the otherwise intelligent people who were unable to follow
the simple logic, were unable to let themselves think.

Although the analysis was almost complete back in 2003, the insights
still come, in the sense of new connections and clarifications. For
example, it was only in 2006 that I saw with full clarity the crucial
role played by vivisection in the scheme of things, and how the fake
animal tests, and our inability to stop them, connect logically with
Velikovsky's collective amnesia/repetition diagnosis.

Another clarification is the one contained in the recent document 'The
Universal Fear of Being Known.'
I'd like to elaborate further on that point.

I've learned that it's better to pare down the analysis to its bare
essentials, even more than previously.

Oxana Malaya is truly your saviour. People have difficulty facing the
degree to which human beings are automatons, condemned to imitate and
repeat the prominent and vivid early formative experiences, especially
those clearly identified with physical survival.

Physical survival is the overriding factor in our instincts. We
willingly sacrifice our emotional integrity if that seems necessary to
secure our physical survival.
Emotional death, the destruction of the soul, along with the pretence
that it is not happening, buys our physical survival.

That is what happened to us, both in the infancy of civilisation and
in the infancy of personality.

Our civilisation has its roots in a major destruction of the surface
of the earth, as shown by the geological record.
Just briefly again - to fight the wars for limited resources that
followed that catastrohe, we had to have child abuse and the rationing
of love to its bare minimum. Hence our three pain-generating, love-
rationing societal arrangements, principally and crucially the mother-
infant relationship is its present corrupted form.
The mother-infant relationship is summed up by George Harrison's word:
INVERTED.
The mother-infant relationship reverses logic and reverses the
dictates of rational thought.
And because what mothers are doing to their babies cannot be justified
and needs to be stopped, the only way to enforce it is via TOXIC
SHAME, meaning shame that has no basis in ethics or logic but shame
for its own sake, shame as an avoidance of critical analysis, shame to
avoid explaining something which your mother cannot explain, because
she has forgotten her own infancy.

Oxana shows us the intensity of our impulse to imitate and repeat our
most vivid early experiences. Anal eroticism is one of your most
prominent early experiences. Obviously every growing toddler has a
powerful impulse to loving caress his mother's anus in the same way as
the mother strokes the baby's anus, the emphasis being on giving the
mother the same pleasure in her anus as she has been giving to the
baby in his anus.
In the forgotten wars for survival, ruling groups placed a prohibition
on babies returning their mother's caresses.
This is an INVERSION of natural functioning and and inversion of
morality.
The child is bewildered and will ask for an explanation as vocabulary
is mastered.
The mother does not know the explanation.
The only refuge is TOXIC SHAME - the most beautiful parts of our
bodies are reclassified as the opposite of beautiful, expressing love
by caressing each others more sensitive parts, such a prominent part
of infancy, is reclassified as abuse.

This is so ridiculous and so obviously plain wrong, that there is no
way of answering the infant's demand for an explanation. Only toxic
shame will silence the child.

But now clarify it further - this terrifying experience we all had as
children.
The mother makes it clear that she has a great loathing for the most
beautiful parts of our bodies and a great loathing for the exchange of
loving, pleasurable caresses which was central to early infancy. The
baby knows his survival depends on retaining the mother's acceptance
and approval. The baby has no way out but to surrender to the toxic
shame, to deny the most vivid and prominent experiences of early life
and to deny his intense impulse to imitate and repeat those
experiences.
This is the destruction of every baby's heart, mind and soul.
The unendurable dilemma you present your baby with is this:
the survival of your body is conditional on the death of your soul.
Your baby dies emotionally and intellectually as you bombard him with
that toxic shame.
You make your baby's survival conditional on his reducing to an
emotional cripple and a moral idiot - having to deny his own
experiences and having to deny the most obvious deductions of simple
logic and natural morality.

Next, why do people not see it? Why do they take refuge in saying I'm
'offensive' or 'sick' or worse?

Your ignorance of your true condition is self perpetuating because
your mother associated that ignorance with your physical survival.
Your mother made it clear to you that the only way to retain her
acceptance and approval was to deny your experience, to deny your
perceptions, to deny your strongest natural impulses, and to deny your
love for your mother.

Some of us survive this emotional mayhem better than others. Parents
who are well intentioned can compensate to a degree for the early
horrors of childhood in survivalist mode. But the fear with which you
greet my insights and my openness is an ancient fear, as reactivating
of the great terror you felt at that critical moment when you realised
that your mother is insane and is demanding that you suppress your own
sanity and believe in your mother's Orwellian inversion:
beauty is ugliness;
pleasure is abuse;
love is prohibited.

So that is where your fear comes from - the fear of your mother's
insanity, and then the fear that if you don't become insane with her,
and stay insane, she will abandon you.

'Children are tortured until they tell their first lie.'

And no matter how many times I explain all of this to you, with
faultless and unassailable logic.... still you refuse to agree that to
end human suffering by removing its cause is a good thing.

Although I said you've not suffered enough and when you have suffered
enough you will accept the simple analysis and healing formula......
is that true? Suffering makes no impression on human beings.
For example there is John Pilger's book, 'Freedom Next Time,' which is
taking us nowhere since Pilger has no idea what freedom means.

Similarly, the 1960s slogan, 'make love, not war,' is valid only if
you know what love is, but you don't know what love is.

Love begins and is rooted in the liberation of the Universal Infant
from the INVERSION imposed by the mother to reduce her babies to
soldier material.

So all your talk of being caring people, all your talk of love and
spiritual progress and compassion for all living beings and your
'great awakening just around the corner' - all of that is just pure
bullshit as long as you have no compassion for human infants and no
intention of perparing to end human suffering by simply removing the
INVERSION from the mother-infant relationship.

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Your fear of healing is palpable.
Among the nonsequiturs you come out with to conceal your fear of
becoming sane is this old 'chestnut' - telling me there is something
wrong with anyone who takes an I'm-right-everyone-else-is-wrong
approach.

It's a nonsequitur from just common sense, but it's also a
misconception of the nature of our predicament.

The reality is that mental illness was imposed on the entire human
race during the ancient wars for survival. In a world where everybody
is mentally ill, which is our world, it is to be expected that the
only way of regaining our mental health is by listening to someone who
is taking that I'm-right-everyone-else-is-wrong approach.

The more clearly you see it, the more uncomforable you will feel, the
more out-of-step you will feel, the more you will feel the need for an
anesthetic of some kind.

For this reason, as more people 'come out' and publicly declare their
long-term aspiration to remove the INVERSION from the mother-infant
relationship, the journey will become the destination.
What that means is that that very feeling that I'm feeling now -
disharmony, intellectual loneliness - as more people begin to feel it
too, they will start to come together in co-healer groups all over the
world and allow a superior form of communal love to flow between
them....and in that sense the journey becomes the destination.

But when?

Not in my lifetime. You love your suffering too much. Above all, you
love to make your children suffer. Not only are you determined to
preserve your pain-generating, love-rationing societal arrangements.
You also are determined to bequeath to your children and grandchildren
poisoned bodies and a wrecked biosphere - smothered under your
unstoppable avalanche of 'animal tested' / untested poisons.

The rejection of the citizens arrest proposal of 1990 was really our
final surrender, our formalising of our global suicide pact.
You are unable to cope with that knowledge, so you say people care and
a great awakening is coming.

It's not coming and it will never come until you awake to the amnesia
surrounding infancy, recover the memories of that terrifying time in
everyone's life, and then make a public declaration that you plan to
end human suffering by removing its cause - which is largely the
destruction of your babies' souls by the imposition of INVERSION via
toxic shame.

Your fear of healing is the worst aspect of your collective mental
illness. That fear makes your mental illness self-perpetuating.

The more clearly I see this, and the more fiercely you resist healing,
the more I feel the disharmony.
I'd better have that drink now.
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The Universal Fear of Being Known:
http://docs.google.com/View?id=dddp6bt4_188hggbt5f8

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COMING OUT

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Wilhelm Reich and Ronald Laing were two men who came close to seeing
the world as it really is.
The didn't quite get there, because to see the the world as it really
is, you have to understand and put into effect the advice of
Apollonius-Jesus, to 'become as little children.'
Without recovering fully the emotional states of the Universal Infant,
you will not see reality and you will not heal.
In the later stage of infancy, we all glimpse briefly the extent of
inversion in this species, as the mother goes into reverse and hurls
at us the Orwellian doublethink, communicating to every baby the
following:
pleasure is now reclassified as abuse, the beautiful parts of our
bodies are now reclassified as so evil that they must be concealed and
never spoken of, and so on.

When the adults did that to you, and even all the older children
parroted the adults' insanity, you teetered on the brink, terrified of
the lunatic asylum you had been born into... and then you surrendered,
absorbing and internalising the doublethink/doublespeak/inversion,
becoming as insane as the adults.
I didn't. I 'froze' instead, at that moment of terror in late infancy
as the toxic shame started flowing and the adults revealed their state
of collective mental illness to me.

I was too sane. My mind could not contain your inversion of reality. I
KNEW you were wrong, I KNEW that pleasure is not abuse, I KNEW that
the the most delightful parts of our bodies should not be concealed
and treated as non-existent, I KNEW that there should not be a
prohibition on expressing love for the people we say we love the most,
I KNEW there should not be a ban on loving more than one, and so on.

I never stopped knowing all that, and more. But to somehow survive in
your inverted/Orwellian madhouse, I had to 'freeze' and lock up my
sanity inside me.

By 2003, I could remain silent no longer. I had to share my sanity
with you and ask you to make a start at breaking free from the
inversion they impose on you all in the later stage of infancy.

After six years of doing my best to help you, it's clear you want none
of it. There have been signals of acceptance, even of admiration, but
that is all. Nobody will 'come out.' And, on present performance, it
may be hundreds of thousands of years into a very sad and very painful
future before you finally want to end human suffering by simply
removing its cause - the inversion/perversion of reality that our
mothers impose on us all in the later stage of infancy.

What I am left with now is only my own personal achievement.
I have demonstrated my sanity in the past six years.
I had to do that publicly, giving you the opportunity to contradict
me. You could not do so. You could only argue about peripheral, non-
essential details. The core essentials of my analysis and healing
formula remain intact, unassailable, uncontradictable.

This is the Wisdom of the Universal Infant, the Voice of the
Voiceless.
It is every baby in the world talking back to you and telling you that
what you are doing to babies in the later stage of infancy is wrong
and must eventually stop, after the required re-education/
reorientation process among adults.

You want none of this.
It's just my personal statement to the world that your inverted
Orwellian upside-down state of collective mental illness was unable to
contain me. In fact it never did. I 'froze' in late infancy, because I
was unable to contain your madness and your madness was unable to
contain me.
Therein lies your hope.

It may happen that way, many thousands of years down the line.
A day will come when a significant number of babies will simply be too
sane to accept your inversion that you seek to impose in the later
stage of infancy.
Perhaps that is why several women have spoken these words to me:
"I wish everyone were like you; what a wonderful world we would have
if everyone were like you."

Maybe that's exactly what is going to happen - many thousands, or even
hundreds of thousands of years down the line.
My preferred explanation is that successive reincarnations in this
madhouse civilisation of yours eventually will instill into the
evolving souls of all human beings the same intense hatred of
falsehood/inversion/doublethink that I have in me.
It's a beautiful thought, but I'm very sad that you are going to wait
perhaps many thousands of years, that you are so addicted to these
pain-generating, love-rationing, child-abusing societal arrangements,
and equally addicted to your global suicide pact of self-poisoning by
"animal tested" [=untested] poisons.

Why can't you just straighten yourselves out now. Recovery takes time,
but the first step is just to 'come out' and tell the truth about our
state of inversion / collective mental illness publicly as I have
done.
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Reducing to Essentials
http://docs.google.com/View?id=dddp6bt4_189g5n68ghs